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Last days of denial
PART 1
Apparently, the man who said ‘you are what you choose to be’ was a liar. A really horrible liar who took joy in making innocent little children believe that they could choose their own destiny and be whoever they wanted to be. If he’s still alive, someone should help him realize the error of his ways. It will start like this: “Sir, since you can choose your destiny, why don’t you decide you’re going to live while me and my knife decide you’re going to die and see who’s will is stronger?”
“Ack!” Yazra cried in frustration, realizing the immoral direction her thoughts had taken. “Why is it so hard to be good?” she wailed. “I haven’t even written a page and already it’s corrupted!”
As if he’d made a comment, Yazra turned to Dr. Halon and sighed. “Don’t lie to me doctor. You didn’t believe that ‘you can do and be anything you set your mind to’ crap either. Thanks for the journal though--so generous of you. Which reminds me…”
Yazra tucked her new journal into the front of her pants and went to lean over the doctor where he sat slumped in his chair, and gave him a warm flirtatious smile, or at least what she hoped was a flirtatious smile. He’d never notice his purse missing, he was dead after all. After a quick search, she stood up strait, slipping her spoils into various hidden folds in her oversized shirts.
She looked one last time at her handy work, wondering if anyone would believe he’d committed suicide. She was sure there would be at least a few people who were happy to see the doctor gone, she highly doubted she was the first girl he’d tried to force himself on. Suddenly remembering the feel of his warm breath on her neck and his hands on her hips, she shivered violently. “You brought this on yourself.” she said quietly, wishing she felt something stronger than indifference for her actions.
Hearing someone outside, she quickly left the doctor’s home office and hurried upstairs. From the attic she’d be able to climb up unto the roof and make her getaway. By the time Mr. Maybell served her the dinner the kind doctor’s purse had provided for her, she’d completely put the afternoon’s sins behind her.
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“Yazra, did you kill Mr. Halon?” Toby asked from the door, watching her as she did a final check to make sure she had everything she needed. She looked up, meeting the seven year old’s large eyes.
“I did,” she said quietly. Was it so obvious? Or had Mr. Maybell figured it out and shared his discovery where Toby could here it? “How did you know?”
Toby grinned smugly, rubbing his nose as he always did when he was pleased. “’Cause you said you was going to go see the doctor, and the next day he was dead! My sister was happy; she said he should rot in hell.”
Yazra considered this, and considered how to make sure that Toby’s findings never became public knowledge.
“Did you tell anyone yet?” She asked, quickly calculating. There weren’t many people about the Inn during the day…
“Nope.” He was still grinning.
Killing him was the easiest way of making sure he never told…Yazra felt her heart squeeze painfully at the very thought. She cursed her parents yet again for bringing her up he way they had. Why were such dark thoughts always the first to come to her mind?
She stood, slinging her bag unto her back.
“I have to get going,” she said, sighing inwardly. She didn’t really want to go. She was tired of this moving around--she hated feeling so alone.
Toby ran over from the doorway and hugged her, his arms wrapping around her waist as he pressed his head into her stomach.
“I won’t tell anybody what you did, ok? I’ll miss you.”
Yazra felt tears wetting her eyes and blinked them back. She hated having to say goodbye to the kids, the only who were people so innocent, her corrupted life could not touch them.
“I’ll miss you too buddy. Take good care of your mom and dad, ok?” She gave him a hug and then gently slid from his grasp, patting him on the head.
“Ok!” he assured her, smiling brightly. He’d forget her soon, and grow up to be a nice, decent, honest young man.
“Good.”
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The man who gave me this journal is dead, mainly because I killed him. I’ve never kept a journal before, but then again I’ve never killed anyone either. Not that I know of anyways. I’m pretty sure fat, greasy old men don’t die just because you stab them in the leg, right?
This is probably a bad way to start, but these days it seems everything I do is bad, so it will have to do. It shouldn’t matter. Everyone I’ve talked to says journals are for two things: keeping record and expressing your true feelings. But I think from now on I will call this my diary. I prefer the letter ‘d’. Which is sad in itself, since ‘d’ happens to be the first letter in the words death, destruction, doom, depression, drought, decapitation, disease, despicable, dread and…well you get the point. I can’t even think of a single good word that starts with ‘d’, though I’m sure they exist. That’s just how my mind works.
I blame my parents.
My mother was a witch, and not just any witch: The Dread Witch herself. She got her powers by eating the rotted heart of a holy man and bathing in his blood. I kid you not. She used to be a healer, actually. I never found out why she decided to become a witch, she always said it was just in her nature.
She had quite a reputation, my mother. She dwelled, like all witches must, in an abandoned shack in the middle of a forest. From there she sold curses, hexes, poisons, and the like, only occasionally (thank the Creator), leaving to lay waste upon and torment some innocent people. She taught me everything she knew, which wasn’t so bad, since a lot of the things I learned are very useful, like which plants are poisonous and how to identify a spell.
The part where she tried to get me to eat a holy man’s heart? Not so much. I can’t count the number of times she spilled some horrible concoction on me and told me the only way to get it off was the bath in a holy man’s blood. Or the times she tried to disguise a rotting heart with vegetables. I wish I could say I hated her for it, but she really was just doing what she thought was best for me.
I also wish I could say I was scarred by the horror of it all, but we had so many hearts in jars and blood in buckets…well you just get used to it. Just like normal kids grow up used to dolls and mud cakes. I know all about mud cakes: mix the with poison, coat them in special potion twenty-three, and when it is finished cooking it will look and smell like the tastiest pie you’ve ever seen.
I went off pies at an early age.
Yazra heard a twig snap somewhere, so she silently shut the journal and tucked it into her bag, her free hand simultaneously sliding towards her boot knife. Time slipped by, and only the sounds of the forest filled her ears. She settled back against the large maple tree and let out a sigh. She’d half hoped it had been someone…but no. She had made up her mind: she’d live alone from now on. No more trouble.
Seeing the sky was darkening, she decided it was about time to settle in for the night. It wasn’t hard to do: she just climbed up the tree she’d been sitting against, found herself a nice sturdy branch, and lay down, using her bag as a pillow. It was an odd way to sleep, but she’d grown up in a forest and as her mother had often told her: “The forest takes care of it’s own, Yazra. You trust it to take care of you and it will.”
So far her mother had never been wrong, not once. Which was just another fact that added to the list of reasons why she was doomed. Her mother had also told her being a witch was in her blood.
PART 2
As horrible as she seems, my mother was actually a very good parent to me, and very loving. I know because she never let me play with the potions, because she’d take me on walks through the forest and teach me everything she knew, because she never hit me, because when I didn’t come home at night she would always find me. If you just closed your eyes for the whole ‘wtich’ part, she was like any other mother, really. Which I guess is why it’s so hard to break free of my parents: they were bad people, but they were loving parents.
I guess the real question people would ask is: How, if I was raised in such a twisted environment, I can tell that what my parents did was wrong? Until my mother died, I never set foot outside the forest. I started to gain a conscience watching people who came into the forest and who came to see my mother. Their tension and fear was a mystery to me, since my mother was always kind. I slowly began to realize that there was something I wasn’t seeing. And then my mother told me about the birds and the bees. And I’m not talking about the way of a man with a woman. It went like this:
“Yazra, you’re six now and old enough that I think you’ll understand what I’m about to tell you,” She’d said, sitting me on her lap. “In this world, there are birds, and there are bees. The bees are every day people like the ones who come and see me here. They live normal lives, all bunched together like bees in a hive. Wasting their lives, trapped in a never ending cycle. They work and work, slaving away mindlessly, eager to please a queen who cares nothing for them, and then they die.” It occurred to me that my mother wasn’t talking about the King, but rather a greater being that she blamed for man’s pitiful existence. “But there are always more of them, because even though she knows their lives are pointless, she keeps giving birth to more, maybe out of a cruel belief that somehow they are happy. But they aren’t, my love. They just think they are.”
As she told me this, the hand she used to stroke my head seemed to get heavier and heavier. She had that tight voice she only ever had when she rambled about thinks she disliked. Namely people. But I didn’t need to stop her from rambling, she came back to herself and continued cheerily.
“And then, there are birds, Yazra. Beautiful birds that soar free, slave to no one. They know that the bees live pointless lives, that to the bees freedom and happiness are nothing but illusions. These birds start off trying to help the bees because they are winged brothers, but the bees are so blind and stupid they only fear the birds and their ways. And so the birds give up on the bees, and decide to forget they were ever winged brethren. Those birds, Yazra, are like you, your father, and I.” I liked the idea of being a bird, I was six after all. “And sometimes, we birds lash out at the bees because their ignorance frustrates us so much, but it doesn’t matter because their lives are meaningless.” This was where she started to lose me a little, because I had remembered a woman once coming to my mother with her son; if their lives were so meaningless, why had the woman guarded her son so protectively?
“But we birds are fewer than the bees, and this is what you really have to understand, Yazra. Alone, the bees are weak and hopeless creatures, but sometimes their fear drives them to unite and they kill the birds out of mindless fear. That is why birds must fly high and away from the bees.”
I soon came to understand that the reason my mother hid me away when people came to her was to protect me, because she feared that if ever the ‘bees’ united against her, they would hurt me too. Though really, I wasn’t worried. Either because at eight, I’d seen my mother crush a group of angry villagers who’d dared to advance on our home, or because my mother had raised to accept death as a natural part of life, especially when assisted by such tings as poison.
My father, for his part, believed that the world was filled with only two kinds of people: wolves, and rabbits. To illustrate this point, he once brought me a snow white rabbit to keep as a pet. My mother made it into a stew. Rabbits, it turned out, existed only for the sake of satisfying the hunger of wolves.
Where my mother allowed her knowledge and (twisted) wisdom about nature and witchcraft to settle within me over time so that I would never be unable to care for myself, my father believed in shock therapy. When I was fourteen he took me out into the world and taught me everything I needed to know about how to survive in the real world, preferably while destroying it.
Yazra looked up from her diary and; the forest had suddenly become very quiet, which she knew was a sign something was wrong. Suddenly a loud and angry roar erupted from the woods, sending silent birds into sudden panicked flight. Yazra knew the animal to be a bear, just as she knew she wouldn’t be able to outrun said bear if it was on some kind of rampage. She quickly packed up the roots she had dug up for breakfast along with her diary and got to her feet. The best thing to do was get off the ground and stay there until the bear was gone.
Once again a roar permeated through the woods, but this time Yazra heard agony. To her it was obvious that the bear was injured, which ensured it was extremely dangerous to be around. Unfortunately, finding herself walking quickly in the direction the sound had come from, Yazra realized it was just as obvious she wasn’t going to be able to sleep with a clear conscience unless she tried to help.
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PART 3
The bear stood leaning heavily against a thick pine, its body heaving from the effort of breathing. It had obviously been in a fight—a spear buried into its side. Yet despite its weak state, it was a magnificent creature. Its fur was long and black, almost silken in appearance. Yazra wondered if this was some eccentric noble's pet, sent into the woods for execution because it had grown too wild and large to keep.
It would have been an execution, had Yazra not snuck up behind the man holding the spear and knocked him senseless with a heavy piece of wood. Though now, face to face with the absurdly large beast, Yazra was quickly reconsidering her plan. A voice that sounded very much like her father’s urged he quickly to use the unconscious man as a shield while she finished off the bear. Another, much like her mothers, told her to trust the forest. The bear’s eyes were dark, dangerous, angry and yet also intelligent.
Whether to appease her father, the bear, or to remove the temptation of listening to her father; Yazra kicked away the unconscious man.
“Hold still,” she ordered the bear, using her mother’s authorative tone. She kept her eyes locked with the beasts as she slowly reached for the spear. The bear growled menacingly. Yazra sighed.
“This is pretty bad, you know. The spear will slowly tear you apart, and you’ll die a slow and painful death. If you let me pull it out now, maybe I can help you.”
Yazra didn’t expect the bear to understand her words, but she trusted that it would hear her voice and understand she wanted to help. For a long moment the bear continued to growl, but the sound receded and finally stopped.
Yazra gently took hold of the end of the spear, shifting her body so the spear would come out the same way it had gone in and do the least damage. It was only a hand's width into the bear’s side, and from the look of the blood stained fur it hadn’t been in very long.
“One…. two…. three…”
Yazra threw her weight backwards, the sound of her falling flat on her back masked by the earth-shaking roar the bear let loose. She lay there a moment, hands still closed around the spear, considering playing dead for a little while.
Or she could stop the bear from mauling his attacker to death. Yazra jumped to her feet and grabbed the man’s heels, pulling him out of the injured animal’s reach. The bear roared an objection, but every step it took towards the man was slow and painful.
“No, no, no! Sit down and be quiet,” she ordered, feeling lightheaded as she realized she was getting between an angry bear and the head it wanted to crush. “If you keep moving around you’ll bleed to death,” she half-pleaded. “Just, lie down. He’s not going anywhere right now. You can eat him later when he’s awake to appreciate it.”
The last comment had been a joke, though who she was trying to amuse was beyond her. However, the bear seemed to understand it wasn’t going to get its paws on the man, and heavily dropped unto the forest floor. Yazra quickly found rope in her bag and tied the man to a tree a little ways away.
“I’m going to be right back,” she announced, indicating with her hands that the bear should stay put. It emitted a low grumbling sound and turned its head away, beginning to lick at its wound.
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It was past nightfall when Yazra finally returned, having hunted around the entire forest for the herbs she needed to quicken the healing. Short of a mortal and pestle, she’d ground them between two rocks and mixed them with water until it was a thick paste. By the time she’d finished, her hands stank of plants, bringing her a nostalgic memory of learning how to make poultice with her mother.
As she approached, she found he scene before her an interesting and amusing one, though the fact that she found it amusing was deplorable. Apparently the spear wielder had woken, for the round whites of his eyes were certainly visible now, and the bear had taken it upon himself to make it clear what would happen if he tried to escape. The two were almost nose-to-nose, and the man was hyperventilating.
“Please! Help me!” He cried, shrieking as the bear roared into his face.
Yazra tugged at her shoulder length hair, an indication of indecision. Finally she approached and set down her bag and the leaf of poultice on the ground.
“Why were you trying to kill this bear?” She asked quietly, getting up and gathering branches and twigs as she spoke.
“I-I wanted to be famous!” He wailed, obviously terrified out of his mind.
“How would killing a bear make you famous?” Of all the absurd things.
“Becau-” The bear roared loudly, threateningly. Yazra frowned and looked up, seeing the bear had its huge paw on the man’s head. He was crying now, whimpering and begging for his life.
“I’m going to let you go now,” she said, walking over. The bear growled, whipping around to face her. She willed her racing heart to quiet, and just kept walking.
“You owe me,” she reminded the bear when she reached him, biting her lip as she felt her own hands begin to shake. The bear eyed her a moment longer, then with a grunt-like sound it shuffled out of her way and sat, watching her intently from a few feet away.
“Go home, and don’t ever let me catch you in a forest again,” she said, untying the knot and steadying the hysteric man as he stumbled forward.
“Oh thank you! Thank you, thank you!” he said as he bowed and stumbled away, his stammered thanks turning to a cry of fear as the bear growled once again. He ran.
Yazra bit her lip, willing herself not to feel happy she’d managed to save this man’s life.
“I’m going to light a fire, then I have to apply a poultice to your wound,” she informed the bear to which he grunted. Somewhere at the back of her mind, Yazra sensed there was something odd about how easily this bear grasped the meaning of the things she said and unconcerned he was by her presence; it said to her he’d spent time around humans. Was that why the man had wanted to kill the bear? Was it some well-known show animal? Looking at the bear as she lit the fire with her tinder, she decided it was a definite possibility; wild bears didn’t have such beautiful fur.
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PART 4
During my childhood, which for me ended at 14 when my father destroyed what shreds of innocence I had left, I rarely saw my father. He was infamous: The Dread Bandit. And yes, it was a name agreed on between him and my mother because they wanted to match. I don’t even want to guess what they wanted me to be called.
Having started as a humble mugger, my father had a real sense of the value of hard work. To him, everything worth having or being was best earned if you had carved a path of blood, tears and sweat with your own two hands to get it. My father could snap a neck like no man’s business, as I soon learned.
He was a good father to me, though, bringing me presents and telling me great stories of the great villains of all time. He carried me on his shoulders and he could make my mother blush like a young girl. It seemed only natural that one day he would take me out and show me the ways of the world as my mother had.
My father was over-enthusiastic, and forgot to take account of my gentle nature, so it was no surprise that when he immediately took me on a raid with him and his twenty-three man band, I went into shock. I’d never seen destruction of the kind and the screams were horrible. I cried and cried and clung to my father for days afterwards, earning myself the nickname Clingy. I never went on another raid again.
Once I got over that though, my father began teaching me about survival. Over the three years I spent as his shadow, I learned about deceit, danger, death, destruction and that the very nature of man is to, in some way or another, crush other men. My father did not soften his teaching with metaphors; when he wanted to show me how to kill a man he found a body, handed me a weapon, and showed me where to stab.
I somehow managed to push out of my mind the knowledge that freshly dead bodies were in limited supply and my father probably made his own. Those types of lessons were limited in number, but by the time the shock wore off I was well used to the fact that death was a violent creature.
Unfortunately, for my conscience, those three years were my time of realization. I learned about men and women from songs sung in taverns, and I learned about what being a villain really meant by allowing myself to lick the rabbits I should have been eating. By the time my father was done teaching me, any belief I may have had that what my parents did for a living was right, was gone. They were villains, and I didn’t have the heart to grow up and be like them, no matter how much I loved them.
Three months before my eighteenth birthday, my mother and our shack were burned to the ground by a small army sent by a nearby lord my mother had hexed. My father cremated the remains of her body and buried them in the woods, under the concerned watch of myself and the flock of crows my mother had used for messengers.
Maybe he should have mourned—maybe I should have too. My mother had been a witch, and she’d taught me about the birds and the bees; I knew death came for everyone. Besides, there was something so cliché about her death that I knew she went down cackling.
Though not sad, my father was definitely not going to live without my mother. He went on a rampage very soon after, leaving me in the care of a baker man and his wife. It was a devastating thing to hear about: town after town, and finally even a stronghold, were crushed under his heel. He somehow amassed under him in a few short months over a hundred men and rode across the country, gaining infamy as he went. It was only five months before the king himself lead an army to stop him. They say he was the last man fighting and that it took twenty men at once to stop him.
I know it was the way he wanted to go.
Yazra closed the diary and finished her mug of cider, mulling over the past in her mind. It seemed amazing, how her parent’s deaths weren’t sad in any way to her. To them, it had been just another part of living. They both would have told me how pleased they were to have such dramatic ends.
Their deaths taught me the last valuable lesson I would ever need to know: fear always turns to hate, and that is when a villain’s days become numbered.
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PART 5
“I’m off.” Yazra announced, watching the bear tearing away at a dear it had taken down. She wasn’t sure which reason for her leaving was the stronger: the fact over the last week she’d come to realize the bear did understand everything she said, or the fact that she was certain bears weren’t carnivorous. There was something very strange about this animal, and she had had her fill of strange.
The bear grunted, not looking up. Yazra sighed, another odd thing about the bear was it’s fur. No matter how many brambles it walked through or how many times it rubbed against a tree, it’s fur remained silken and clean. Yazra could sense magic at work.
She had had her fill of that too.
Without another word she shouldered her bag and headed for the main road. She didn’t like staying in the same place for too long, anyways. The feeling of loss when she had to leave reminded her too much of having to leave the forest she’d grown up in. You couldn’t live in a forest where a witch had died: within a year the place became cursed.
It was odd other would think it, that she missed the forest more than her parents.
She hadn’t been walking for more than an hour when the scent of blood made her halt. Her stomach turned and she found herself crouching to look at a torn shirt; animals had obviously destroyed it. Wolves, she guessed, looking at the size of the tears. She felt a lump form in her throat, she recognized this shirt: it had belonged to the man who’d attacked the bear. But it was strange; wolves didn’t usually prey on humans.
Yazra knew at once what she’d done. She’d allowed the bear to terrorize him, appeasing her own twisted sense of justice, and then sent him off unarmed and out of his mind with terror into a forest at night. So, she thought bitterly, yet again the world proves that any good I might try and do will turn to something bad.
She buried the shirt under a large rock and continued, stopping when she reached the main road to write and relieve her aching heart.
I’ve always bee a traveler, since I was on my own. I stay in a town, work for my keep, and then move on, usually after something goes wrong. My mother always said being a bird was in my nature, I guess she was right. No matter how hard I try to be a bee, it always seems like my bird wings trash the hive just when I think they’ve turned into bee wings.
I try so hard, and it just never works.
“Hey you!”
A loud voice made Yazra jump, nearly spilling ink all over her diary. Seeing a patrol of seven of the king’s soldiers marching her way, she quickly tucked her journal into her bag. She’d had run-ins with the king’s soldiers before…the last time she’d ended up accidentally stabbing one of them.
If you can call a reflexively stabbing someone three times an accident. She hadn’t killed him of course, but his right hand would be of no use to him anymore, if he’d somehow managed to re-attach the damned thing.
She stood, bowing her head so her brown bangs covered her eyes. They were a stunning green, a color that might have been remembered from her little ‘accident’. “Yes?” she asked meekly.
“Where’s your pass?” the leader demanded, glaring down at her through his helmet. The soldiers moved around almost casually, but before she knew it they had completely surrounded her. Pass? What pass? There was no such thing! Anyone could walk the roads, though you had to show proof of citizenship to enter walled cities.
“I-” she began, thinking quickly. “I think my brother has it. I was sitting here waiting for him. He should be back soon, he was just catching something to eat.”
From their chuckles, she suspected these men knew she was making it all up, but they’d started it.
“And I suppose your brother also has the license for hunting in the king’s forest?” More chuckles. Yazra had to think fast, because she didn’t much trust these men.
“Sure,” she agreed, trying to judge which one of these men would be the easier to knock out of the way. She would douse him wit the ink still in her hand, and run. Their flashy armor would slow them down significantly. Hopefully.
“Liar. There is no such thin as a road pass or a hunting license. It’s a major offence, lying to the king’s knights.” He drew his sword as he said this. “We’ll just have to teach you a lesson.” The circle closed in by a step…
And then the world exploded.
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Yazra learned that day there was no sight quite as spectacular and frightening as that of a bear charging. And this bear, as Yazra noticed, was twice the size of a normal bear. He bowled aside two of the men, sending them flying to land with loud crashing sounds on their backs. With a roar it started in on the remaining five. Stunned, Yazra watched the carnage unravel before her.
The bear crushed armor, dodged swords and clawed at faces and throats. By the time three men were down and dead; the remaining soldiers were running. The bear chased them down, jumping on top of the closest and mauling mercilessly. The two men the bear had initially sent flying were getting up. They trembled so badly their armor rattled loudly.
“It’s the Demon Bear!” they cried, beginning to run in the opposite direction of their allies. Their words woke Yazra like a jolt of lightning. She’d heard of the Demon Bear before; though it sounded like something you’d call a myth, the bear was a very real creature. People said that he was a bloodthirsty witch hunter who’d finally crossed one witch too many: he was cursed to roam forever in the form of a bear, unless he could win the love of a witch powerful enough to lift the curse. Or at least it was safe to assume, with his reputation, that only a witch maddened by love would release him from the curse and allow him his revenge.
Some believed the story, some did not. The only think anyone had to know was that there was a gigantic black bear with fur as black as death itself that massacred any it met on the road; whether you were a child, woman, man, noble or poor made no difference. The beast was like an entire bandit hoard combined into one creature. And she’d saved his life.
The bear had run down the next man, who as she’d predicted was slowed by his bulky armor, and was merrily beating the life out of him with it’s paws. He was so busy he did not seem to notice the third running his way, sword raised high. He screamed; perhaps to let the monster know he would finally rid the roads of him—or perhaps because there was a knife in his neck.
One that looked very similar to Yazra’s own boot-knife.
Horrified, she was finally aware of herself. Her arm was outstretched; her fingers open, as they always were when she threw a knife the way her father had taught her. She watched, eyes wide, as the man toppled backwards, blood spilling from his neck.
Slowly feeling came back to her numb body, and she took in the carnage. Three dead men lay before her and two not very far away. One of the later two had died by her hand. It was as it had been with the doctor; her body had reacted without asking her mind’s permission. She had the blood of two men on her hands.
No, far more than that. She’d killed a doctor, healed the injured and cared for the sick. And now she’d killed a soldier, who guarded the roads against bandits, thugs—who’d been trying to put an end to a man-killer that preyed on the undeserving. Some dark instinct had willed her to save this creature, this beast that now lopped back towards her, almost contented. His fur wasn’t silken; it was slick with blood.
She felt her whole body trembling, falling to her knees finally when the bear sat down a foot away and began to lick himself clean. She felt sick, like someone had their hand around her gut and were squeezing.
“You pass,” A voice spoke. She turned, coming face-to-face with a gentleman in his forties. He wore grey robes and around his neck hung a white stone pendant. A wizard. She flinched back, stumbling away and nearly falling over one of the dead bodies. The bear looked up, mildly interested by the newcomer.
“Don’t be alarmed. I’ve been watching you for some time now and never done you any harm,” he purred, but instead of soothing her his voice sent shivers down her spine.
“Why?”
“A test. And today you’ve passed. These men? I sent them. I wanted to see how you would react, how you survive. You did marvelously.”
A cold, hard realization settled into the pit of her stomach: these men were dead because of her.
“How long?”
“Years, Yazra. I’ve known of you since you were a child. I’ve always watched you because I knew your potential. Yours is a natural talent. You’ve been fighting it, but I think the time has come for you to face what you are.”
With each word, Yazra felt colder and colder.
“I can help you, Yazra. I can ease the transition. It doesn’t have to be as painful as this pointless struggle you’ve been fighting all your life. It can be easy. Fun.”
A growl interrupted the man. He smiled apologetically. “And of course I can find great use for you as well, cursed one.”
He was talking about the darkness, Yazra knew. He was talking about her dream, about her blood, about her fate. She’d been trying so hard, so long, and for nothing. There was no escaping it, no denying it. Everything she did was tainted.
Yazra closed her eyes. She knew what she had to do.
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I love you all, thank you so much for reading my work and giving me such positive feedback! If you find the time, let me know what you think about these questions:
1) How old do you think Yazra is? How old do you think she should be?
2) Do you feel you understand Yazra's inner struggle, or do you feel the story would benefit if I expanded further on that aspect of her life?
3) On a scale of one to ten, how random is the Demon Bear? If part four was lengthened and Yazra spilled her guts to him and bonded, what would be his randomness then?
4) What's your opinion on how quickly the plot moves? What do you think of the plot overall? Are there holes?
5) And last but not least...do you feel th story would benefit from more description of the scenery, characters, sights, smells, etc?
So far my update list is as follows:
MidnightVampire - VioletSunrise - Heatherish - SirWozzel - gurockian - JabberHut - lykeOMGitsSABRINA
P.S. Yes, okay. I have finally decided, since the dictionary says a prologue can be an 'introductory chapter', that this is the PROLOGUE now. Mainly because the other chapters are set some months later and calling the first one chapter two kills the flow.
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XD Yay! That's exactly how I felt when I picked the name Yazra.
I'm glad you liked the humor, I know sometimes I overdo it, but I think I managed pretty well to blend it in enough that it works. XD I do it for myself, of course, I love being able to laugh at what I write)
Yes, sorry, the wizard is a little random, to bear too. The thing is, of course, that they kind of come together. The wizard's randomness could be fixed, but his relevance only really shows up later on in the story. XD
And I'll be trying to add some scenery when I get to the 'new version' that I will start asap (as soon as school leaves me alone! >.<).
I'm glad you enjoyed! Thanks for the crit, I shall get to those changes soon.
^_^ Keek!
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Part Three
Should be “spear was buried” or “there was a spear buried”
Simple typo: “urged that she quickly used,” “urged her to quickly use,” whathaveyou
How would this appease her father?
“authoritative” and “beast’s”
Change one, please.
I’m pretty sure you need a dash between “blood” and “stained”
You just used that phrase.
*snort* We didn’t think this through, did we darling!
What a beautiful line! LOL!
Are “mortal and pestle” the things she couldn’t find, or the method(s) she’s not using to make the paste?
You either need a comma here or, better yet, make “He grunted.” a separate sentence.
Eh, just awkward and kind of confusing wording, darling.
Part Four
Separate into multiple sentences, please, it just gets confusing all jumbled together in just one like this.
Rofl!!! That’s horrible! *snicker, snicker, snicker* (but in a good way, of course)
Very practical man, that.
Um…then what are the terrifying teeth and claws there for?
Bzzzzz
“thing”
Eh?
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No younger than 16 or 17, no older than 28. Other than that, can’t really tell.
Nope, struggle perfect and understood.
Original randomness: about 4/10, not too bad. Randomness if guts are spilled: 6 or 7/10
Plot motion is steady, if not exactly fast-paced, but that’s by no means a bad thing. Overall, I find the plot very good, and relatively hole-less!
Well, this is just a thing of mine, but I like it when the smells of a scene are described. I don’t do it nearly enough myself, and often I find that people over-do it, but when I come across a really well-done scent description, it pulls me in like crazy.
Okay…
Humor: Beautiful, twisted, and absolutely, horribly wonderful.
Characterization: Similar. You do a really great job on Yazra, explaining her backstory, but I did find myself wondering “Okay then, if her parents were so bad, how’d she turn out so (relatively speaking) good?” I know you say she had/has a “gentle nature,” but maybe if you could expand on the whys and wherefores there.
Scenery A little sparse, but again that’s not a major drawback in this particular story. If you feel like bulking it out, I think it would make it better, but if you’re content with where it is then don’t sweat.
Okay, you asked about the bear’s randomness, and now I’m asking about the wizard’s. His sudden appearance out of pretty much nowhere left me both incredulous and a little disappointed. It just came off as a little cliché, and in my head felt something like: “Haha, here I am, old wise man mentor character, but evil, and now I shall teach you so there.” If you’re going to work him in, I think you need to have a little more buildup. I was just getting used to the Bear (whom I like, btw), and now woah there’s this dude.
Overall, though, a really fantastic story, darling. You play around with stereotypes and clichés, throw in twists that are both exciting and funny, and, just so you know, Yazra is exactly the kind of name two super-villains would give their daughter. Thank you for a delightful read, darling.
Here is part one of my review, encompassing parts one and two of your loverly work! I shall answer you poignant questions when I'm done with a full review, but for now, I'm loving it!
Part One
Brilliant. I’ve always thought this about this saying, and it really pulls you in.
Masterful tease/hint there.
Cut this, it’s eversomuch more better if you don’t say it outright, and I think your readers are intelligent enough to ‘get it.’
These two sentences need a semicolon, or even just a colon (it would work here), instead of a comma. I don’t think separating them with a period would work as well.
I think you need something between “dinner” and “the kind doctor’s purse,” probably a “which” or a “that,” just so the reader knows you’re transitioning a bit here—otherwise you have to read the sentence twice to understand.
typo—should be “the way” not “he way”
o.O? I think I get the sentiment, but…huh?
A wonderful sentence, in oh so many respects.
Delicious? Delightful? Darling? Dearest? Sorry!
should be “them”
Part Two
I think you mean “things”
Need a “me” between “raised” and “to,” and “things,” not “tings”
Two things: 1) misplaced semicolon, 2) you don’t need to tell us that a forest suddenly becoming quiet means something’s wrong, most of us know so already, and those who do don’t will get it from the fact that Yazra looks up at this change.
“Ensured” is an awkward word to use here, and nix the red bit, it’s redundant.
Thanks so much for reading! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Yes, the bear is a little random. And my mom says it's been done (His Dark materials, though those were polar bears and they talked. =P), and humanizing an animal has been done. Sadly, it's all a little necessary, though I might change what animal he is if I can find something interesting.
>.< I'd tell you how it all makes sense later in the plot (at the end of the novel XD), but that would spoil the fun. I do so love plot twists.
Thanks again!
^_^ Keek!
I didn't realize how long it was until I was about halfway through it. Then I looked at the scrollbar and was like "HOLY COW!" But it is all good. No worries.
The beginning of this confused me. In the very beginning, I though that this was in modern times and Yazra was in a psychiatrist's office. Also, the dialogue between her and the kid felt pretty modern. So I was a little confused when later we started talking about witches. Witches? Huh? I was like "Okay, so they're modern witches... that's random." Then I finally realized what the setting was a little ways down. Perhaps you might somehow want to make the time and setting a little more clear. I was really confused for a while there.
The first thing I thought of was 20-ish, even before I read about her being 18 or whatever. I think that 20 feels about right somehow. It just seems like a nice age of "maturity" and offers a lot of freedom that, say, a teenager wouldn't have.
For now I think it is okay. If you want to continue elaborating on her inner struggle, I would love to read more, but if you are asking if it really needs it, I think I'd say no. I mean, we're going to see more of her being her, so I think that it is all good.
Eh, I'd give it a 8 probably. It is extremely random. And the idea of a humanized bear is kind of cliche. Yazra seems to accept him pretty quickly, and he seems to be really liking her really fast. That just seems to go pretty quickly, how easily they get on together. But I think, had you had her spilling guts so soon, randomness level would have skyrocketed to an 11. Let that take time. As it is, the relationship moves really fast. Maybe you could consider slowing it down a little bit.
It is only the first part, so I can't really pick out holes just yet. The pace seems to be really nice and consistent. My only complaint was the bear (see above).
They wouldn't hurt, but in my opinion, they aren't really needed especially. The story is mainly character based and you could point out things that Yazra really notices or cherishes in her stimuli, but you don't have to describe the landscape if Yazra really doesn't care about it. Do just what she thinks is important. It is all about her.
Wow. I really liked this. I have known about it for so long, but I have never gotten the time to get around and actually read it. I feel awful. But now I have actually read the first part, so I am on my way to redeeming myself.
Yazra is such a great character. She is so conflicted and somehow she is totally believable, despite the outrageous circumstances. She is funny, yet you feel for her. Geez, but I am jealous!
Great, great job. *applause and confetti*
~GryphonFledgling
=P Sorry about the length. I had no idea how long it was and sort of posted it as I went. >.< I only saw after that it was 13 pages. XD
DUDE!!!!!!!!! That's LOOOOONG!!!!!!
looks kool though. i got it, and i'll read n critique it next chance i get.
dunno wen that'll be, though.
Thanks for the critique! I will be working on more detail when I come back to fix all the things people mentioned in the prologue.
And yes, her name is awesome. I just asked myself 'what kind of name sounds like a villain?' and voila. Yazra.
Yay. I finished reading and reviewing it.
Now all I have to do is type it up >.>
People don't generally say "Ack!" Maybe you could say something like this:
Yazra grumbled in frustration,
Why is she seeing the doctor? Maybe you could explain that a bit.
What does the doctor look like? Maybe you could describe his features a bit.
Why would it be a flirtatious smile? I do recall in chapter one something about him saying 'have some fun' to Yazra. Is that why she is giving him a flirtatious smile? If so maybe you could make a that a little clearer.
Are you going to say how he died? And why she killed him?
I noticed you had to "after"s very close together. If you read it out loud it sounds kinda weird. I know its how you should do it, but maybe you should move some words around to make it sound better as well
You need to add some description to what the characters look like. Tell us more about Yazra's surroundings and what she and other people look like.
Its kinda unclear to all of a sudden have Toby, and she seems to know him pretty well. I think you should explain a little bit about how she knows him and stuff.
I see some grammatical errors in Toby's dialogue. I understand that it would be an accent or gansta slang or something, if it is you should inform us so we are not on our toes. Ya knows?
By the way Yazra is a pwnful name! It totally rocks!
I would say the last two periods aren't necessary. I dono, its up to you, it just looks odd to me XD
I like how you brought up her parents. Its like you are setting a trap for us. Then at the right moment you will lock us in forever
Eyes are always wet, maybe you could say "wetting her eyelashes" or "welling in her eyes"
If she has never killed anyone why is she constantly thinking of it? And why would she randomly kill the doctor?
You need to describe her mom a bit. You don't have to make it thorough just enough for us to work off of.
Maybe you should but a "what before the "I" like this:
What I never found out, is why she decided to become a witch, she always said it was just in her nature.
I don't know it just sound better. To me that is, you don't have to do it if you don't want to.
I really like Yazra, she is very laid back, calm and confident. Good work! Its always a good thing to have your readers fall in love with Yazra, so when you do that breathtaking moment when someone is attempting to kill her or something we all start crying.
Common! You can come up with a better name than that!
This would be a perfect place to add some description about the pies. Make them tasty sounding, so we are drooling XD
This bit is screaming for a little description! Take advantage of that!
Why is she so prepared for everything if she has never killed someone before?
Maybe you should explain why she has the boot knife, maybe it could have been her mother's or her father's. Its always good to have a story behind things, right?
You can take out "to do"
Maybe you should describe the tree. Its colours etc.
This is a bit of an info dump, kinda overwhelming.
I think this would be a great place to a have a flashback. With description!
You only have a little bit about her dad.
You seem to right about her mother in bigger portions. So maybe you should even it out a little bit.
I also noticed that she is an orphan. That idea is very cliché, I know a lot of book about orphans. Its not a bad thing. Just warning you XD
Isn't she already in a tree? A bear would climb after her.
So she knows the bear can kill her easily but she is still going to save it?
I know its part of her character, but its like shooting herself. Its nice of her thought
I am liking the description here =]
There is a man with the bear? You failed to mention that in the first paragraph of this part. You should tell us what he looks like and where he is situated in the first paragraph.
Where was the man before she kicked him?
I noticed you mentioned "spear" a few times. Maybe you could reduce them.
I know this isn't a key point but what does she do with the spear once she has pulled it out? Toss it aside, keep it etc...?
Its just one of the things that makes me think XD
I like the humour you add here!
do you mean "onto" or "into" ?
What do plants smell like? You should describe this.
Tell us about her dream!
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I really like this, Yazra is really awesome and cool XD
I like where it is going and I look forwards to reading more!
I suggest using more description so we can paint a clear picture in our minds.
Keep up the excellent work!
Cheers,
Gwen
I'm glad you think she's like-able. I was thinking about her personality and got scared maybe she was kind of dull (not so much in the prologue, but in chapter one...). I am going to fight very hard to keep her from being being blank-ish.
Thanks for the feedback! I'll have to come back and fix this up one day, though I'm quite proud of it. ^_^
Zomg, I just realized that there's a prologue to this! *hyperventilates* I know I should be reviewing the first chapter, but it wouldn't seem right if I overlooked this bit, would it?
I think there should be a comma after 'me'.
There needs to be a comma after 'warm'.
I think 'handy work' is just one word: handiwork.
Replace the comma with a semi-colon.
'here' should be 'hear'.
I don't like the repetition of 'considered'. Maybe you could say 'wondered' the second time instead?
All those "ok's" should be 'okay'.
Mix the what with poison?
I think there should be a 'that' after 'seeing'.
'wtich'? Typo, or something?
I think you should switch the 'I' and the 'can' around so it looks like this: 'How, if I was raised in such a twisted environment, can I tell that what my parents did was wrong?'
'tings' should be 'things'
There should be a comma after 'suddenly', methinks.
I'm not 100% sure, but it might flow better with a comma after 'once again'.
I don't think the second half of that sentence is in the right tense. Even if it's not a tense issue, it might sound better as: '-a spear was buried in it's side'
Just use a comma, you don't need that semicolon.
I think 'beasts' should be: beast's, since it is possessive.
'mortal' should be 'mortar'.
I think there should be a 'that' after "she'd".
There should be a comma after 'bear'.
I think there should be a 'how' before 'unconcerned'.
'me' should be 'I'.
The period after 'off' should be a comma: "I'm off," Yazra announced, watching the bear tearing at a deer it had taken down.
('dear' should be 'deer'.)
Definitely. I could picture it all in my head, but the characters were much more clear than the surroundings and whatnot. You can mention things like the weather and tie it in to her emotions and thoughts.
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Overall, this is great!
Forgive me if I've repeated what has already been mentioned, but I'm far too lazy to read two pages worth of critiques. >.> I hope I brought up some new stuff, though...
Anyways. This is really good. Yazra is a really cool character (and she's gotta cool name) - I can relate to her and despite her flaws and "dark side", she is quite likable.
Kudos!
Cheers,
Camille
P.S. Your crit for the rest of Chapter One will be up as soon as possible!
Hey SV...
{This is good so far}
[I've only read about half of it]
-Im just commenting ahead of time-
Uhhh I need points-so desperate-
I'm afraid I only read up to part 2, but I will read the rest later.
Really really good, liked this a lot.
Be careful not to get too wrapped in your ideas so that they dont make sense to your raders, dont worry I do it too. I had to read a few things over twice to make sure I know what was going on.
Other than that, raly good!
Oh, and check through, a few minor spelling slip ups.
Keep it up!
Will read more when I can!
Hugs for everyone! *hugs*
first impression: wow.
you really get into character, which can be a difficult thing to do at times. I love the witty personality. I also love your description; it's absolutely amazing!! there are a few techinical errors, but i'm sure those have been pointed out. this is absolutely amazing!!
and to answer some of your questions:
1) I think Yazra is about 18, give or take a few years.
2) I ocmpletely feel Yazra's inner struggle; you did a very good job of expressing it.
3) About a 3, but it makes a good addition to the story, to gelp move it along.
4) the plot moves rather well, not too slow (even wiht the diary entries) but not too fast. and i didn't see any holes as of yet. i might go back and reread it, however. its quite long. ^_^
5) description is always good, but you don't want to overdo it. it's pretty descriptive so far. keep it up, and keep me posted!!
I thought this was very well done. Are you going to do it in chapters or parts or something? Will there be a sequel I should wait for? And does anybody know how to find a draft you save on your computer? this isnt a joke I really need to find it!
Thanks for your input kitty and bigbad! I'll make those changes as soon as I can. (might be sooner than I'd like, I'm a bit annoyed with chapter one and taking a break =P).
I'm so glad you guys liked it and will keep reading. *more happy dancing* Having people enjoying my work motivates me to stick with it even when I get bored. You all rock.
^_^
Last days of denial
PART 1
Apparently, the man who said ‘you are what you choose to be’ was a liar. A really horrible liar who took joy in making innocent little children believe that they could choose their own destiny and be whoever they wanted to be. If he’s still alive, someone should help him realize the error of his ways. It will start like this: “Sir, since you can choose your destiny, why don’t you decide you’re going to live while me and my knife decide you’re going to die and see who’s will is stronger?”
“Ack!” Yazra cried in frustration, realizing the immoral direction her thoughts had taken. “Why is it so hard to be good?” she wailed. “I haven’t even written a page and already it’s corrupted!”
As if he’d made a comment, Yazra turned to Dr. Halon and sighed. “Don’t lie to me doctor. You didn’t believe that ‘you can do and be anything you set your mind to’ crap either. Thanks for the journal though--so generous of you. Which reminds me…”
Yazra tucked her new journal into the front of her pants and went to lean over the doctor where he sat slumped in his chair, and gave him a warm flirtatious smile, or at least what she hoped was a flirtatious smile. He’d never notice his purse missing, he was dead after all. After a quick search, she stood up strait, [Should be ‘straight’] slipping her spoils into various hidden folds in her oversized shirts.
She looked one last time at her handy work, wondering if anyone would believe he’d committed suicide. She was sure there would be at least a few people who were happy to see the doctor gone, she highly doubted she was the first girl he’d tried to force himself on. [Maybe ‘upon’ rather than on?] Suddenly remembering the feel of his warm breath on her neck and his hands on her hips, she shivered violently. [I like the contrast between warm breath and shivered, good choice of words.] “You brought this on yourself.” [Comma rather than full stop.] she said quietly, wishing she felt something stronger than indifference for her actions.
Hearing someone outside, she quickly left the doctor’s home office and hurried upstairs. From the attic she’d be able to climb up [s]unto[/s] onto the roof and make her getaway. [Maybe escape would work better?] By the time Mr. Maybell served her the dinner the kind doctor’s purse had provided for her, she’d completely put the afternoon’s sins behind her. [This is a bit awkward. Maybe you could simply say ‘She was looking forward to dinner and, thanks to the kind doctor, she now had the money to pay for it.’]
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“Yazra, did you kill Mr. Halon?” Toby asked from the door, watching her as she did a final check to make sure she had everything she needed. She looked up, meeting the seven year old’s large eyes.
“I did,” she said quietly. Was it so obvious? Or had Mr. Maybell figured it out and shared his discovery where Toby could [s]here[/s] hear it? “How did you know?”
Toby grinned smugly, rubbing his nose as he always did when he was pleased. “’Cause you said you was going to go see the doctor, and the next day he was dead! My sister was happy; she said he should rot in hell.”
Yazra considered this, and considered how to make sure that Toby’s findings never became public knowledge.
“Did you tell anyone yet?” She asked, quickly calculating. There weren’t many people about the Inn during the day…
“Nope.” He was still grinning.
Killing him was the easiest way of making sure he never told…Yazra [You need a space to separate the ellipse and Yazra, remember, you use it just like you would any other piece of punctuation.] felt her heart squeeze painfully at the very thought. She cursed her parents yet again for bringing her up the way they had. Why were such dark thoughts always the first to come to her mind?
She stood, slinging her bag [s]unto[/s] onto her back.
“I have to get going,” she said, sighing inwardly. She didn’t really want to go. She was tired of this moving around--she hated feeling so alone.
Toby ran over from the doorway and hugged her, his arms wrapping around her waist as he pressed his head into her stomach.
“I won’t tell anybody what you did, ok? I’ll miss you.”
Yazra felt tears wetting her eyes and blinked them back. She hated having to say goodbye to the kids, the only [s]who were[/s] people so innocent, her corrupted life could not touch them.
“I’ll miss you too buddy. Take good care of your mom and dad, ok?” She gave him a hug and then gently slid from his grasp, patting him on the head.
“Ok!” he assured her, smiling brightly. He’d forget her soon, and grow up to be a nice, decent, honest young man.
“Good.”
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The man who gave me this journal is dead, mainly because I killed him. I’ve never kept a journal before, but then again I’ve never killed anyone either. Not that I know of anyways. I’m pretty sure fat, greasy old men don’t die just because you stab them in the leg, right?
This is probably a bad way to start, but these days it seems everything I do is bad, so it will have to do. [Maybe instead of ‘so it would have to do’ you could have ‘so at least it’s honest.’] It shouldn’t matter. Everyone I’ve talked to says journals are for two things: keeping record Needs to be either ‘keeping a record’ or ‘keeping records.’] and expressing your true feelings. But I think from now on I will call this my diary. I prefer the letter ‘d’. Which is sad in itself, since ‘d’ happens to be the first letter in the words death, destruction, doom, depression, drought, decapitation, disease, despicable, dread and…well [Space between ellipse and well.] you get the point. I can’t even think of a single good word that starts with ‘d’, though I’m sure they exist. That’s just how my mind works.
I blame my parents.
My mother was a witch, and not just any witch: The Dread Witch herself. She got her powers by eating the rotted heart of a holy man and bathing in his blood. I kid you not. She used to be a healer, actually. I never found out why she decided to become a witch, she always said it was just in her nature.
She had quite a reputation, my mother. She dwelled, like all witches must, in an abandoned shack in the middle of a forest. From there she sold curses, hexes, poisons, and the like, only occasionally (thank the Creator), leaving to lay waste upon and torment some innocent people. She taught me everything she knew, which wasn’t so bad, since a lot of the things I learned are very useful, like which plants are poisonous and how to identify a spell.
The part where she tried to get me to eat a holy man’s heart? Not so much. I can’t count the number of times she spilled some horrible concoction on me and told me the only way to get it off was the bath [Rather than ‘the bath’ maybe ‘to bathe’ would be smoother?] in a holy man’s blood. Or the times she tried to disguise a rotting heart with vegetables. I wish I could say I hated her for it, but she really was just doing what she thought was best for me.
I also wish I could say I was scarred by the horror of it all, but we had so many hearts in jars and blood in buckets…well you just get used to it. Just like normal kids grow up used to dolls and mud cakes. I know all about mud cakes: mix them with poison, coat them in special potion twenty-three, and when it is finished cooking it will look and smell like the tastiest pie you’ve ever seen.
I went off pies at an early age. [I really like the story so far. Your narrator has a very natural, smooth voice and an interesting personality. You use a good variety of sentence lengths and the plot’s developing well. I also wanted to note that the diary entrys are very effective.]
Yazra heard a twig snap somewhere, so she silently shut the journal and tucked it into her bag, her free hand simultaneously sliding towards her boot knife. [Maybe this would be more natural as ‘Yazra heard a twig snap so she shut the journal with a soft click and tucked it…’] Time slipped by, and only the sounds of the forest filled her ears. She settled back against the large maple tree and let out a sigh. She’d half hoped it had been someone…but [Space between ellipse and but.] no. She had made up her mind: she’d live alone from now on. No more trouble.
Seeing the sky was darkening, [This is a touch awkward. Maybe ‘Noting the dark hue of the sky’ or something would fit better?] she decided it was about time to settle in for the night. It wasn’t hard to do: she just climbed up the tree she’d been sitting against, found herself a nice sturdy branch, and lay down, using her bag as a pillow. It was an odd way to sleep, but she’d grown up in a forest and as her mother had often told her: “The forest takes care of [s]it’s[/s] its own, Yazra. You trust it to take care of you and it will.”
So far her mother had never been wrong, not once. Which was just another fact that added to the list of reasons why she was doomed. Her mother had also told her being a witch was in her blood.
PART 2
As horrible as she seems, my mother was actually a very good parent to me, and very loving. I know because she never let me play with the potions, because she’d take me on walks through the forest and teach me everything she knew, because she never hit me, because when I didn’t come home at night she would always find me. If you just closed your eyes for the whole [s]‘wtich’[/s] ’witch’ part, she was like any other mother, really. Which I guess is why it’s so hard to break free of my parents: they were bad people, but they were loving parents.
I guess the real question people would ask is: How, if I was raised in such a twisted environment,[s] I[/s] can I tell that what my parents did was wrong? Until my mother died, I never set foot outside the forest. I started to gain a conscience watching people who came into the forest and who came to see my mother. Their tension and fear was a mystery to me, since my mother was always kind. I slowly began to realize that there was something I wasn’t seeing. And then my mother told me about the birds and the bees. And I’m not talking about the way of a man with a woman. It went like this:
“Yazra, you’re six now and old enough that I think you’ll understand what I’m about to tell you,” She’d [No need to capitalise she’s.] said, sitting me on her lap. “In this world, there are birds, and there are bees. The bees are every day people like the ones who come and see me here. They live normal lives, all bunched together like bees in a hive. Wasting their lives, trapped in a never ending cycle. They work and work, slaving away mindlessly, eager to please a queen who cares nothing for them, and then they die.” It occurred to me that my mother wasn’t talking about the King, but rather a greater being that she blamed for man’s pitiful existence. “But there are always more of them, because even though she knows their lives are pointless, she keeps giving birth to more, maybe out of a cruel belief that somehow they are happy. But they aren’t, my love. They just think they are.” [An excellent analogy, very well thought out!]
As she told me this, the hand she used to stroke my head seemed to get heavier and heavier. She had that tight voice she only ever [s]had[/s] used when she rambled about thinks she disliked. Namely people. But I didn’t need to stop her from rambling, she came back to herself and continued cheerily.
“And then, there are birds, Yazra. Beautiful birds that soar free, slave to no one. They know that the bees live pointless lives, that to the bees freedom and happiness are nothing but illusions. These birds start off trying to help the bees because they are winged brothers, but the bees are so blind and stupid they only fear the birds and their ways. And so the birds give up on the bees, and decide to forget they were ever winged brethren. Those birds, Yazra, are like you, your father, and I.” I liked the idea of being a bird, I was six after all. “And sometimes, we birds lash out at the bees because their ignorance frustrates us so much, but it doesn’t matter because their lives are meaningless.” This was where she started to lose me a little, because I had remembered a woman once coming to my mother with her son; if their lives were so meaningless, why had the woman guarded her son so protectively?
“But we birds are fewer than the bees, and this is what you really have to understand, Yazra. Alone, the bees are weak and hopeless creatures, but sometimes their fear drives them to unite and they kill the birds out of mindless fear. That is why birds must fly high and away from the bees.”
I soon came to understand that the reason my mother hid me away when people came to her was to protect me, because she feared that if ever the ‘bees’ united against her, they would hurt me too. Though really, I wasn’t worried. Either because at eight, I’d seen my mother crush a group of angry villagers who’d dared to advance on our home, or because my mother had raised me to accept death as a natural part of life, especially when assisted by such things as poison.
My father, for his part, believed that the world was filled with only two kinds of people: wolves, and rabbits. To illustrate this point, he once brought me a snow white rabbit to keep as a pet. My mother made it into a stew. Rabbits, it turned out, existed only for the sake of satisfying the hunger of wolves. [Hehe. Good use of short sentences here and a very nice piece of characterization.]
Where my mother allowed her knowledge and (twisted) wisdom about nature and witchcraft to settle within me over time so that I would never be unable to care for myself, my father believed in shock therapy. When I was fourteen he took me out into the world and taught me everything I needed to know about how to survive in the real world, preferably while destroying it.
Yazra looked up from her diary and; the forest had suddenly become very quiet, which she knew was a sign something was wrong. Suddenly a loud and angry roar erupted from the woods, sending silent birds into sudden panicked flight. [I think you could make this more dramatic. Maybe something like ‘Yazra looked up; the forest was quiet. Unusually so. An absence of sound settled around the tree and then a loud, defiant roar! erupted from the woods, sending the birds into a frantic flight.’] Yazra knew the animal to be a bear, just as she knew she wouldn’t be able to out-run said bear if it was on some kind of rampage. She quickly packed up the roots she had dug up for breakfast along with her diary and got to her feet. The best thing to do was get off the ground and stay there until the bear was gone. [Isn’t she already sitting in the tree at this point? If not, you need to note the change in setting and the passing of time more clearly.]
Once again, a roar permeated through the woods, but this time Yazra heard agony. To her it was obvious that the bear was injured, which ensured it was extremely dangerous to be around. Unfortunately, finding herself walking quickly in the direction the sound had come from, Yazra realized it was just as obvious she wasn’t going to be able to sleep with a clear conscience unless she tried to help.
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PART 3
The bear stood leaning heavily against a thick pine, its body heaving from the effort of breathing. It had obviously been in a fight—a spear buried into its side. Yet despite its weak state, it was a magnificent creature. Its fur was long and black, almost silken in appearance. Yazra wondered if this was some eccentric noble's pet, sent into the woods for execution because it had grown too wild and large to keep.
It would have been an execution, had Yazra not snuck up behind the man holding the spear and knocked him senseless with a heavy piece of wood. Though now, face to face with the absurdly large beast, Yazra was quickly reconsidering her plan. A voice that sounded very much like her father’s urged her quickly to use the unconscious man as a shield while she finished off the bear. Another, much like her mother’s, told her to trust the forest. The bear’s eyes were dark, dangerous, angry and yet also intelligent.
Whether to appease her father, the bear, or to remove the temptation of listening to her father; Yazra kicked away the unconscious man.
“Hold still,” she ordered the bear, using her mother’s authorative [I don’t think this is actually a word. Maybe commanding instead?] tone. She kept her eyes locked with the beast’s as she slowly reached for the spear. The bear growled menacingly. Yazra sighed.
“This is pretty bad, you know. The spear will slowly tear you apart, and you’ll die a slow and painful death. If you let me pull it out now, maybe I can help you.”
Yazra didn’t expect the bear to understand her words, but she trusted that it would hear her voice and understand she wanted to help. For a long moment the bear continued to growl, but the sound receded and finally stopped.
Yazra gently took hold of the end of the spear, shifting her body so the spear would come out the same way it had gone in and do the least damage. It was only a hand's width into the bear’s side, and from the look of the blood stained fur it hadn’t been in very long.
“One…. two…. three…”
Yazra threw her weight backwards, the sound of her falling flat on her back masked by the earth-shaking roar the bear let loose. She lay there a moment, hands still closed around the spear, considering playing dead for a little while.
Or she could stop the bear from mauling his attacker to death. Yazra jumped to her feet and grabbed the man’s heels, pulling him out of the injured animal’s reach. The bear roared an objection, but every step it took towards the man was slow and painful.
“No, no, no! Sit down and be quiet,” she ordered, feeling light-headed as she realized she was getting between an angry bear and the head it wanted to crush. “If you keep moving around you’ll bleed to death,” she half-pleaded. “Just, lie down. He’s not going anywhere right now. You can eat him later when he’s awake to appreciate it.”
The last comment had been a joke, though who she was trying to amuse was beyond her. However, the bear seemed to understand it wasn’t going to get its paws on the man, and heavily dropped [s]unto[/s] onto the forest floor. Yazra quickly found a piece of rope in her bag and tied the man to a tree a little ways away. [Might sound better as ‘a short distance away.’]
“I’m going to be right back,” she announced, indicating with her hands that the bear should stay put. It emitted a low grumbling sound and turned its head away, beginning to lick at its wound. [She left the man tied to a tree and the bear loose?]
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It was past nightfall when Yazra finally returned, having hunted around the entire forest for the herbs she needed to quicken the healing. Short of a mortal and pestle, she’d ground them between two rocks and mixed them with water until it was a thick paste. By the time she’d finished, her hands stank of plants, bringing her a nostalgic memory of learning how to make the poultice with her mother.
As she approached, she found the scene before her an interesting and amusing one, though the fact that she found it amusing was deplorable. Apparently the spear wielder had woken, for the round whites of his eyes were certainly visible now, and the bear had taken it upon himself to make it clear what would happen if he tried to escape. The two were almost nose-to-nose, and the man was hyperventilating.
“Please! Help me!” He cried, shrieking as the bear roared into his face.
Yazra tugged at her shoulder length hair, an indication of indecision. Finally she approached and set down her bag and the leaf of poultice on the ground.
“Why were you trying to kill this bear?” She asked quietly, getting up and gathering branches and twigs as she spoke.
“I-I wanted to be famous!” He wailed, obviously terrified out of his mind.
“How would killing a bear make you famous?” Of all the absurd things.
“Becau-” The bear roared loudly, threateningly. Yazra frowned and looked up, seeing the bear had its huge paw on the man’s head. He was crying now, whimpering and begging for his life.
“I’m going to let you go now,” she said, walking over. The bear growled, whipping around to face her. She willed her racing heart to quiet, and just kept walking.
“You owe me,” she reminded the bear when she reached him, biting her lip as she felt her own hands begin to shake. The bear eyed her a moment longer, then with a grunt-like sound it shuffled out of her way and sat, watching her intently from a few feet away.
“Go home, and don’t ever let me catch you in a forest again,” she said, untying the knot and steadying the hysteric man as he stumbled forward.
“Oh thank you! Thank you, thank you!” he said as he bowed and stumbled away, his stammered thanks turning to a cry of fear as the bear growled once again. He ran. [Good portrayal of fear here and I’m glad Yazra is uncertain. That makes her a much better persona =)]
Yazra bit her lip, willing herself not to feel happy that she’d managed to save [s]this[/s] the man’s life.
“I’m going to light a fire, then I have to apply a poultice to your wound,” she informed the bear to which he grunted. Somewhere at the back of her mind, Yazra sensed there was something odd about how easily this bear grasped the meaning of the things she said and how unconcerned he was by her presence; it said to her he’d spent time around humans. Was that why the man had wanted to kill the bear? Was it some well-known show animal? Looking at the bear as she lit the fire with her tinder, she decided it was a definite possibility; wild bears didn’t have such beautiful fur.
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PART 4
During my childhood, which for me ended at 14 [It’s a diary so I suppose writing 14 as a number is okay here because it helps to portray her youth and the difference in style but I just wanted to note that you should avoid it elsewhere.] when my father destroyed what shreds of innocence I had left, [I’d use a full stop here rather than a comma.] I rarely saw my father. He was infamous: The Dread Bandit. And yes, it was a name agreed on between him and my mother because they wanted to match. I don’t even want to guess what they wanted me to be called.
Having started as a humble mugger, my father had a real sense of the value of hard work. To him, everything worth having or being was best earned if you had carved a path of blood, tears and sweat with your own two hands to get it. My father could snap a neck like no man’s business, as I soon learned.
He was a good father to me, though, bringing me presents and telling me great stories of the great villains of all time. He carried me on his shoulders and he could make my mother blush like a young girl. It seemed only natural that one day he would take me out and show me the ways of the world as my mother had.
My father was over-enthusiastic, and forgot to take account of my gentle nature, so it was no surprise that when he immediately took me on a raid with him and his twenty-three man band, I went into shock. I’d never seen destruction of the kind and the screams were horrible. I cried and cried and clung to my father for days afterwards, earning myself the nickname Clingy. I never went on another raid again.
Once I got over that though, my father began teaching me about survival. Over the three years I spent as his shadow, I learned about deceit, danger, death, destruction and that the very nature of man is to, in some way or another, crush other men. My father did not soften his teaching with metaphors; when he wanted to show me how to kill a man he found a body, handed me a weapon, and showed me where to stab.
I somehow managed to push out of my mind the knowledge that freshly dead bodies were in limited supply and my father probably made his own. Those types of lessons were limited in number, but by the time the shock wore off I was well used to the fact that death was a violent creature.
Unfortunately, for my conscience, those three years were my time of realization. I learned about men and women from songs sung in taverns, and I learned about what being a villain really meant by allowing myself to lick the rabbits I should have been eating. By the time my father was done teaching me, any belief I may have had that what my parents did for a living was right, was gone. They were villains, and I didn’t have the heart to grow up and be like them, no matter how much I loved them.
Three months before my eighteenth birthday, my mother and our shack were burned to the ground by a small army sent by a nearby lord my mother had hexed. My father cremated the remains of her body and buried them in the woods, under the concerned watch of myself and the flock of crows my mother had used for messengers.
Maybe he should have mourned—maybe I should have too. My mother had been a witch, and she’d taught me about the birds and the bees; I knew death came for everyone. Besides, there was something so cliché about her death that I knew she went down cackling.
Though not sad, my father was definitely not going to live without my mother. He went on a rampage very soon after, leaving me in the care of a baker man [There’s no need for man, baker would be sufficient.] and his wife. It was a devastating thing to hear about: town after town, and finally even a stronghold, were crushed under his heel. He somehow amassed under him in a few short months over a hundred men and rode across the country, gaining infamy as he went. It was only five months before the king himself lead an army to stop him. They say he was the last man fighting and that it took twenty men at once to stop him.
I know it was the way he wanted to go.
Yazra closed the diary and finished her mug of cider, mulling over the past in her mind. It seemed amazing, how her parent’s deaths weren’t sad in any way to her. To them, it had been just another part of living. They both would have told me [Don’t change point of view! Third person all the way! Or if you must use first, put this in italics to show a direct thought.] how pleased they were to have such dramatic ends.
Their deaths taught me the last valuable lesson I would ever need to know: fear always turns to hate, and that is when a villain’s days become numbered. [Again, either put it in Italics or change it to third person.]
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PART 5
“I’m off.” Yazra announced, watching the bear tearing away at a dear it had taken down. She wasn’t sure which reason for her leaving was the stronger: the fact that over the last week she’d come to realize the bear did understand everything she said, or the fact that she was certain bears weren’t carnivorous. There was something very strange about this animal, and she had had her fill of strange.
The bear grunted, not looking up. Yazra sighed, another odd thing about the bear was [s]it’s[/s] its fur. No matter how many brambles it walked through or how many times it rubbed against a tree, [s]it’s[/s] its fur remained silken and clean. Yazra could sense magic at work.
She had had her fill of that too.
Without another word she shouldered her bag and headed for the main road. She didn’t like staying in the same place for too long, anyways. The feeling of loss when she had to leave reminded her too much of having to leave the forest she’d grown up in. You couldn’t live in a forest where a witch had died: within a year the place became cursed.
It was odd [s]other would think it,[/s] that she missed the forest more than her parents.
She hadn’t been walking for more than an hour when the scent of blood made her halt. Her stomach turned and she found herself crouching to look at a torn shirt; animals had obviously destroyed it. Wolves, she guessed, looking at the size of the tears. She felt a lump form in her throat, she recognized this shirt: it had belonged to the man who’d attacked the bear. But it was strange; wolves didn’t usually prey on humans.
Yazra knew at once what she’d done. She’d allowed the bear to terrorize him, appeasing her own twisted sense of justice, and then sent him off unarmed and out of his mind with terror into a forest at night. So, she thought bitterly, yet again the world proves that any good I might try and do will turn to something bad.
She buried the shirt under a large rock and continued, stopping when she reached the main road to write and relieve her aching heart.
I’ve always been a traveler, since I was on my own. I stay in a town, work for my keep, and then move on, usually after something goes wrong. My mother always said being a bird was in my nature, I guess she was right. No matter how hard I try to be a bee, it always seems like my bird wings trash the hive just when I think they’ve turned into bee wings.
I try so hard, and it just never works.
“Hey you!”
A loud voice made Yazra jump, nearly spilling ink all over her diary. Seeing a patrol of seven of the king’s soldiers marching her way, she quickly tucked her journal into her bag. She’d had run-ins with the king’s soldiers before…the last time she’d ended up accidentally stabbing one of them.
If you can call [s]a[/s] reflexively stabbing someone three times an accident. She hadn’t killed him of course, but his right hand would be of no use to him anymore, if he’d somehow managed to re-attach the damned thing.
She stood, bowing her head so her brown bangs covered her eyes. They were a stunning green, a color that might have been remembered from her little ‘accident’. “Yes?” she asked meekly.
“Where’s your pass?” the leader demanded, glaring down at her through his helmet. The soldiers moved around almost casually, but before she knew it they had completely surrounded her. Pass? What pass? There was no such thing! Anyone could walk the roads, though you had to show proof of citizenship to enter walled cities.
“I-” she began, thinking quickly. “I think my brother has it. I was sitting here waiting for him. He should be back soon, he was just catching something to eat.”
From their chuckles, she suspected these men knew she was making it all up, but they’d started it.
“And I suppose your brother also has the license for hunting in the king’s forest?” More chuckles. Yazra had to think fast, because she didn’t much trust these men.
“Sure,” she agreed, trying to judge which one of these men would be the easier to knock out of the way. She would douse him with the ink still in her hand, and run. Their flashy armor would slow them down significantly. Hopefully.
“Liar. There is no such thing as a road pass or a hunting license. It’s a major offence, lying to the king’s knights.” He drew his sword as he said this. “We’ll just have to teach you a lesson.” The circle closed in by a step…
And then the world exploded.
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Yazra learned that day there was no sight quite as spectacular and frightening as that of a bear charging. And this bear, as Yazra noticed, was twice the size of a normal bear. He bowled aside two of the men, sending them flying to land with loud crashing sounds on their backs. With a roar it started in on the remaining five. Stunned, Yazra watched the carnage unravel before her.
The bear crushed armor, dodged swords and clawed at faces and throats. By the time three men were down and dead; the remaining soldiers were running. The bear chased them down, jumping on top of the closest and mauling mercilessly. The two men the bear had initially sent flying were getting up. They trembled so badly their armor rattled loudly.
“It’s the Demon Bear!” they cried, beginning to run in the opposite direction of their allies. Their words woke Yazra like a jolt of lightning. She’d heard of the Demon Bear before; though it sounded like something you’d call a myth, the bear was a very real creature. People said that he was a bloodthirsty witch hunter who’d finally crossed one witch too many: he was cursed to roam forever in the form of a bear, unless he could win the love of a witch powerful enough to lift the curse. Or at least it was safe to assume, with his reputation, that only a witch maddened by love would release him from the curse and allow him his revenge.
Some believed the story, some did not. The only [s]think[/s] thing anyone [s]had to know[/s] really knew was that there was a gigantic black bear with fur as black as death itself that massacred any it met on the road; whether [s]you[/s] they were a child, woman, man, noble or poor made no difference. The beast was like an entire bandit hoard combined into one creature. And she’d saved his life.
The bear had run down the next man, who as she’d predicted was slowed by his bulky armor, and was merrily beating the life out of him with [s]it’s[/s] its paws. He was so busy he did not seem to notice the third running his way, sword raised high. He screamed; perhaps to let the monster know he would finally rid the roads of him—or perhaps because there was a knife in his neck.
One that looked very similar to Yazra’s own boot-knife.
Horrified, she was finally aware of herself. Her arm was outstretched; her fingers open, as they always were when she threw a knife the way her father had taught her. She watched, eyes wide, as the man toppled backwards, blood spilling from his neck.
Slowly feeling came back to her numb body, and she took in the carnage. Three dead men lay before her and two not very far away. One of the later two had died by her hand. It was as it had been with the doctor; her body had reacted without asking her mind’s permission. She had the blood of two men on her hands.
No, far more than that. She’d killed a doctor, healed the injured and cared for the sick. And now she’d killed a soldier, who guarded the roads against bandits, thugs—who’d been trying to put an end to a man-killer that preyed on the undeserving. Some dark instinct had willed her to save this creature, this beast that now lopped back towards her, almost contented. His fur wasn’t silken; it was slick with blood.
She felt her whole body trembling, falling to her knees finally when the bear sat down a foot away and began to lick himself clean. She felt sick, like someone had their hand around her gut and [s]were[/s] was squeezing.
“You pass,” A voice spoke. She turned, coming face-to-face with a gentleman in his forties. He wore grey robes and around his neck hung a white stone pendant. A wizard. She flinched back, stumbling away and nearly falling over one of the dead bodies. The bear looked up, mildly interested by the newcomer.
“Don’t be alarmed. I’ve been watching you for some time now and never done you any harm,” he purred, but instead of soothing her his voice sent shivers down her spine.
“Why?”
“A test. And today you’ve passed. These men? I sent them. I wanted to see how you would react, how you would survive. You did marvelously.”
A cold, hard realization settled into the pit of her stomach: these men were dead because of her.
“How long?”
“Years, Yazra. I’ve known of you since you were a child. I’ve always watched you because I knew your potential. Yours is a natural talent. You’ve been fighting it, but I think the time has come for you to face what you are.”
With each word, Yazra felt colder and colder.
“I can help you, Yazra. I can ease the transition. It doesn’t have to be as painful as this pointless struggle you’ve been fighting all your life. It can be easy. Fun.”
A growl interrupted the man. He smiled apologetically. “And of course I can find great use for you as well, cursed one.”
He was talking about the darkness, Yazra knew. He was talking about her dream, about her blood, about her fate. She’d been trying so hard, so long, and for nothing. There was no escaping it, no denying it. Everything she did was tainted.
Yazra closed her eyes. She knew what she had to do. [I like the ending, a very good conclusion to the prologue. I’ll see if I can answer those questions you had now…
1. She seems to be about sixteen or maybe a not so well educated seventeen but I know she must be at least eighteen through the diary entries. I think that’s pushing it - she doesn’t seem mature enough.
2. I think you’ve done an excellent job at portraying her inner struggle.
3. He doesn’t seem any more random than the characters from other fantasy novels to be honest and I don’t think you should have Yazra ‘spill her guts’ to him. It wouldn’t really fit with her personality and that’s what the diary is for.
4. I think the pace is good though you could have more description of the setting. What you have so far is beautiful but another line or two wouldn’t hurt.
5. Yeah. Remember the five senses. You concentrate on sight a lot in this which is good and there’s a reasonable amount of scent and sound but what about touch and taste? How does the bark of the tree feel against her back and having her eat or drink would help to show a passage of time.
In general? Good work. It’s well written and your character develops nicely throughout the prologue. I look forward to reading chapter one.
Heather xx
p.s. Feel free to ask questions and sorry it took so long.
Hey! I will be doing a crit for every part, so expect some crits soon!
(Note that I haven’t read over the other crits, so sorry if I repeat anything!)
Part One:
Ha! I really liked that first part, when Yazra was thinking. It lures the reader in; exactly what we want.
I would change this around so that it would read:
…it’s already corrupted.
How do you tuck a journal in the front of your pants? :huh:
I have to tell you that your MC has a good personality. She is well developed, and I am interested in reading more about her. So, goes off to read the rest of part one
Ok. This is really good. REALLY good. I’m not kidding. I’m gonna stop there tonight, but don’t worry. I promise (cross my heart) that I’ll be back. This is incredibly good. I wish that I could just read this for the heck of it! Oh well. I’ll do the crits!
So, great job! I look forward to reading more. And I will get to do the rest of the chapters in the near future!
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I really loved reading your prologue. But I did notice a few typos. Can't really remember where exactly, plus I'm not always the most helpful. Anyways, keep up the good work.
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Woot. Thanks Heather! ^_^ I'm glad to get your review. I'll definitely be reworking the prologue to have more description, I just don't know when. I like setting things aside and coming back to them later when it's easier to be objective. ^_^
I assumed that she was 18. I think it said that her mom was killed when she was 18 and she was sent to live with a baker while her father went on a rampage. I am assuming this can only be months or maybe a year later. 18-20 would be my guess.
I personally see part of her struggle. I noticed that she tries to be unfeeling toward people but at the same time she saved that man from the bear for no reason. I see that internal struggle. I also see that killing has almost been carved into her personality. It seems that most of the time she kills without thinking about it. The last few lines of this Prologue were a bit confusing for me but I'm assuming that is what you meant to do.
I think the Demon Bear is random but at the same time, thus far it has been used as a tool to show Yazra's personality. She was frightened of it but she still took care of it, even going out of her way to search for ingredients to make it some kind of medicine. I dint know what the bonding stuff is so I don't think I can answer that last question.
I like the way the plot is moving. We dint exactly know where Yazra is or where she is going but she doesn't know that much either. I also like that you are introducing her past in the form of a journal and flashbacks. So far I dint see any plot holes.
I think that describing a scene with the five senses can never hurt. As long as you aren't having her touch, smell, and taste everything every time she goes somewhere new...that would just be weird.
Good job on the prologue now I'm off to read the rest!!
*Moved to Fantasy Fiction*
Thanks again guys. Hopefully chapter two will meet expectations. =P
well, again, again, again, again, i agree with Jabber on all the grammar. ;-P
i really like the plot, how she's trying to be a good guy, but she keeps (is it really accidental?) doing stuff that makes her a "bird".
anyways:
1) How old do you think Yazra is? How old do you think she should be? i don't know...i imagined her to be about 15 or 16?
2) Do you feel you understand Yazra's inner struggle, or do you feel the story would benefit if I expanded further on that aspect of her life? i think you've got that part down well, but you can always add more.
3) On a scale of one to ten, how random is the Demon Bear? If part four was lengthened and Yazra spilled her guts to him and bonded, what would be his randomness then? umm...i'd say a 6.5 for randomness. i haven't heard of a bear used, but there have been similar things
4) What's your opinion on how quickly the plot moves? What do you think of the plot overall? Are there holes? it is a little quick, but obviously, we don't know what the plot is like, so maybe it's going really slow for the overall. no holes that i've noticed yet, but there will be more chapters so you can fill stuff in later.
5) And last but not least...do you feel th story would benefit from more description of the scenery, characters, sights, smells, etc? yeah. the scenery would be nice, that way it would add more depth into the story--give you an idea what her life is like. i think that more description (but not so much that it gets boring) will draw the reader into the story more--they'll feel like it's their world too, not just the characters.
those are my thoughts...don't forget to PM me about chapter two!
I'm glad it surprised you, that was the idea. She herself was shocked when she realized she'd done it. I was trying to illustrate just how much Yazra's "villany" isn't by choice. Thanks for reading guys! I might not rework chapter one until after I'm done chapter two, that way I should be able to see where it needs improvements more clearly.
I liked that excerpt from your story, it had a good twist. And i like trying to figure out what kind of a person Yazra is, but she is very amuzing i know that much. I also liked your metaphors quite a lot. i was a bit confused though, when you said how her mom was explaining this to her when she was six, and then went on to say something that she had gone through when she was eight, so i didn't know when the time change happened.? Also, along with some of your other commentaries, i also think that it wouldn't hurt to add some more discription. Over all, very good! I look forward to reading more, please pm me if you add on. ya, i was dumb-founded when i found that she had killed him, maybe i wasn't reading it right the first time, but i don't know, it surprised me. Well, good story!
Back once again! I guess you're not sick of my nit-pickiness yet. That'll quickly change.
Watch your its's, lol. It's = it is. ...about the bear was it is fur. Doesn't make sense, so we delete apostrophe.
Revise, please. It doesn't make sense.
The second sentence seems awkward to me. I think it's the semi because you used it earlier, but I can't put my finger on it...You stumped me, lol.
If you haven't already in the original copy, I'd put the thought bubbles in italics.
I think you made the sentence longer than it should be.
D'oh! Hope she doesn't get caught! *bites fingernails*
Um...would the knights really do that? Or is the king this unfair?
*stares blankly* That's a bit intense...almost too intense...
It was as it had been with the doctor—her body had reacted without asking her mind’s permission.
Yay! You got the comma!
Purred? I got the shivers.
I really liked this part. You didn't straight-up tell us that it was the bear who growled. Bravo!
Alright--questions? Ooh, that's a first!
1. I think Yazra's sixteen-ish, eighteen maybe. That sounds about the right age too.
2. I think I understand what she's gone through. She's definitely very strong within, a trait most people/characters lack.
3. I like the Demon Bear. ^_^ I guess my imagination went wild when you explained how unique he was. Hopefully later you'll explain exactly who the Demon Bear is. For now, though, I like the character and hope to find out more about him.
4. The plot, I think, just started. The first four parts were all about her past, which is nice to know, but the plot just started when the wizard showed up in the end. So, no plot holes.
5. Description is always good. If you added more, it would make the parts longer and you may need to make separate threads or people won't review. I guess my imagination goes wild with images, so I can't have much say. I can see it very clearly, but I'm a visual person. Unless the forest isn't your normal forest or the knights aren't your normal knights (that kind of thing), I wouldn't stress over it.
Yay, that was my overall review. I like the questions. I should start doing that...Lol.
Keep writing! Wonderful story!!
Jabber, the One and Only!
Ok, there's not really a way I can top everyone with all the grammer fixes and spelling and comments that people before me made.I really like this, I like how you cut of the guy saying what was so bad about the bear, and then having Yazra wonder, instead of just shrugging it off. I really did like it, but I don't have much time on the computer before my sister wants to shove me out of the chair to get on the computer. Sorry for the short critique, but it does rock, I'll tell you that.
-MV.
Thanks Jabber! I'll work on my tags (*is not used to using them much*) and I don't actually know how to use the log dash but word does let me make them if I put 2 small dashes.
As for Yazra's 'villainous beliefs', maybe it isn't clear but she didn't actually have any She just grew up in an environment that gave her a slanted view of right and wrong. She still believes her parents teaching (ex: killing a man is the most sure-fire way to make sure he doesn't tell your secret), but she knows they're wrong now so she tries to ignore them and her instincts. I may need to clarify that and maybe make it more clear.
I'll have to think about working it in, because I'm realizing I haven't made it clear just how much her instincts, which usually lead to morally bad behavior, are one of the root causes of her continuing problems.
OOOH. You know I think I had planned for that to be revealed during her time with the bear, which I kind of cut out as I mentioned. >.< Maybe I will extend the fourth part.
I'll make the changes when I get the fifth part done. ^_^ Thanks a bunch!
I'm back! You missed me, right?
You don't have to answer. 
It had obviously been in a fight—a spear was buried into its side.
No apostrophes in the underlined words.
I'm afraid I don't know exactly what you mean to help you fix it. ^^;
That keyboard of yours didn't cut out again, did it?
Three's enough.
Tags!
You're going to hate me if I keep posting these tags need fixing. You'll just have to go through when you edit.
Awkward sentence. It's kind of a run-on.
The underlined portion seems a bit awkward. I think you should just say it had but it's up to you.
I'm going to blame your keyboard, k?
I'm kind of confused how her family's death would change Yazra's mind about what she believed was right. Wouldn't characters be outraged by the loss of a close parent and seek revenge? I think a lot more should occur before she just changes from a villain to a good guy.
Did I mention the big dashes to you? That you can make them in MS Word? If not, PM me, but rewriting the sentence like below would be better.
Maybe he should have mourned—maybe I should have too—but my mother had been a witch, and she’d taught me about the birds and the bees.
Nice job here.
Good job! Just watch your tags and take care of that keyboard of yours.
Yazra is developing well, considering not much of a plot has developed yet. We'll know her more when you show us the plotline.
Keep writing! Can't wait 'til the next part!
Jabber, the One and Only!
lol. Yes, the bear is kinda random, for the moment. But he is all part of the final nudges that push Yazra over and beyond the limits of her ability to forgive herself. As we will learn in the next part! ^_^
(But I agree about randomness, I had wanted to give Yazra a chance to form a bond with the bear and use that as a chance to reveal more of her character, but due to all five parts being 12 pages font 2 times new roman I decided to cut it out and skip right to the conclusion of the chapter. *can write millions of pages of character development and no plot if left to her own devices*)
Question for readers: I am re-writing part five, due to it sucking muchly and going against Yazra's personality. I don't like it, but would these be anyone who'd want to see it? (I would post it in the pilot thread). I expect the answer to be no, but seeing as it's typed I'll ask anyways. =P
her personality is good..i like how she's torn between being a villain, and being a nice(r) person. i think Jabber took care of most of the typos, and since i'm on a laptop i won't make a nice, long review (sorry). i think that it's coming along nicely, but i would like to know what the point of the bear was. i really liked the bear part, but i'm not quite sure how it ties together. i liked your descriptions of the parents a LOT, you make them much more likable. i think that the birds and bees and the wolves and rabbits parts were very good, and i was just wondering when (and if) you're putting her dream in...
i think that it's great, has some very good, meaningful (to yazra) parts, and your writing style is very good. the plot's very good, except for the bear part, which hasn't come together with the story yet (but i'm sure it will)
this is a great story, thanks for posting, can't wait to read more...blah, blah, blah. sorry i couldn't come up with a real edit (because according to aet, all my posts are n00by posts), but this is a bit long and i'm on the wrong comp.
keep me on your PM list.
Wozzell
^_^ I've made the corrections to the story. If anyone sees any others let me know.
(Also, comments on Yazra's personality itself would be cool. I'm especially wondering if she seems consistant.)
Actually Jabber, I really appreciate your review. As must as I bask in all the positive feedback, I know because of the keyboard I had when I was writing it, there were a lot typos. I was starting to catch some on my own, but Ive been kind of trying to finish chapter one so I haven't had a chance to find them all. (Bad rewiews=ones where they tell your character, plot and or writing style suck, but not in so few words. Though if there was something wrong with those things Id probably want to know so I could fix it =P)
Ill definitely let you know when Ive updated. Thanks for reading (I will fix all those things later today when I get back from my eventy-seminar thing. *wishes she was still asleep*)
(Notice there are no apostrophes^ Thats because this keyboard also is weird on me. >.<)
Yodles! You don't know me, but it don't hurt to meet new people.
As I read this, I'm gonna rip it, tear it, and smile the entire time. 
Should this quote be closed? Or is she reading this aloud?
About the double dashes: "Thanks for the journal, though--so generous of you."
Watch your tags. ^^ "I did," she said quietly.
He's got a long neck.
Wow.
Delete comma. ^^
No commas before 'because'.
Rewrite this as you choose. There's a couple ways to do so.
Easy number to spell out.
Delete both semis.
Overall, good plot! I like your style as well, how you start with journal entries then...yeah, everything. I love it a lot! There's typos galore in here, which is mainly what is up above. Don't be discouraged at such a long review. It's just typos. I'm pretty bad at them myself. I never reread my work, which is a very bad habit.
I wouldn't mind reading the next part, actually. Of course, if you don't wish me to critique, you let me know. I wouldn't want to discourage you any further if I have already.
Keep writing!
Jabber, the One and Only!
wow, it's getting creepier than the other parts i've read...there are some grammatical errors i noticed when Yazra's talking to the little boy, but i don't have time to give all the edits now. other than that...it's not bad.
i'd like to read more...
Nice twist. I got a little creeped out about the heart thing, but maybe that's because I'm very visual. I sorta got the image, which -in my case- is bad, but in your case, that's fine. I liked it.